This is what is good for me. This is what I need to do:
This is madness. But it speaks to you, and so you respond because it is you who does the speaking and so you act on no one’s orders but your own. You are responsible for your feelings. Whatever good you give to whomever – fine. We must suck it up – the butter-cup. We must drink deeply, for long and hard are the continuing journeys. Each one, a history inside me is building. Each act of ridiculous life. What a sham. What a scam. But I love it because it is my Everything, and I am the creator of it. I am the unicorn. I am the prize.
To be by myself. Alone. Needed, like the perfect walk on the perfect day. Such made-up fantasy lives we live. We’re all fucking nuts from our weirdo-mix of unsanitary primate, culturally car-jacked by to grow into being complete and total dumbasses. We’re barely past apes. We ARE apes.
I don’t mean to sound too negative. I’m not that down on it all the time. Sometimes I know the pleasures. Probably most of the time. I just get really addicted to – the romanticizing of my…the…god. Hard to explain rn.
The younger people have twice as much space for drama in their lives than we did. I think that’s a fact. And its fucking crazy-source.
One becomes a victim of one’s own personality along the way (maybe the whole way), but in ways we choose. how can it be a choice if it is unconscious? Good question. How could it be? No one knows the answer.
I need to let some anger bubble out of me more regularly. How to do that? Probably to…I dunno. Maybe just more of things that are good? Why do emotions have to parallel each other so, in order to keep us (ourselves) healthy?
All my words, diving like a . Stuck. Well.
Short lives lived in beautiful houses.
In the Past position
A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.
Meaning: Seeing the extraordinary in the ordinary. Exquisite balance. A period of re-birth. Slow down and view the world with fresh, magical perspective. Trust your intuition.
In the Present position
A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.
Meaning: The principle of consequences. You reap what you sow. Reclaim your power. Take an honest inventory of your life; acknowledge your successes and defeats.
Six of Pentacles
In the Future position
A card in the right position indicates your questions future.
Meaning: Step into the natural flow of abundance. The custodian of resources, philanthropy. Generously offer life your best and deliver a worthwhile vision.