Frank K.’s over the house tonight to play with the game-group. (“It’s not necessarily the games you all come together for like you all used to. I think you’re here for the game, yes; but it could be any game. It could be Uno. You all come here for the vibe. You all come here to ride the same vibe and at the same time with each other, ” I said to Adam. “…Yes.” He agreed, after a pause of thoughtful consideration of my idea.
Oh, anyway, Frank passed by going to the kitchen. I was sitting at my desk, putting my Susan Seddon Boulet (artist) totem-animal cards away; putting all the things away as a symbolic and very needed conjuring of a Fresh Start. He said, “How are you, Jen?”, to which I said, “I’m very good, I’ve been very good”, (and I thoughtfully considered myself what I’d just said and decided it could be true, so I allowed it).
In the Past position
A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.
Meaning: Triumph, success, and security. Growth, well-being, and nourishment. Solutions, faith, and glory. Sincerity in love. Play, vacation, and enjoying the blessings in life without analysis. Being present in the moment. Rejuvenation. Childlike innocence and playful manner. Youth. Trust. Blossoming. Thriving. Enjoying the pleasures of nature. Bounty after trials. Masculine, sexual energy. Summer love, country romance. Bright, warm days. Learning new skills through play. Thanksgiving. Birth of a child. Fame.
Seven of Swords
In the Present position
A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.
Meaning: Resignation. Acceptance. Limited success. Releasing of the old renews the spirit. Rejecting outside expectations for an individually fashioned lifestyle. End of an ordeal. Negotiations. Independent thinking. Confidence. Release from the grip of material questing for higher pursuits.
In the Future position
A card in the right position indicates your questions future.
Meaning: Ascension. Opening to a higher dimension. Culmination and synthesis. Enlightenment. Attaining a broader view of life. Moving beyond the personal to become aware of the interconnected nature of life. Harmony and perfection. Peace and freedom of thought. Inspiration and comprehension. Ecstasy. Glimpses, however brief, of the great mysteries of life. Being able to appreciate the larger scene or patterns in life. Faith. Epiphany. A heightened sense of being alive. Purpose. Confidence. Completion. Enjoying life and anticipating its curves. Unencumbered by the trivial. Being in control of one¹s fate. Intelligence. Independence. Determination and stability. Strength and enthusiasm. Intuition and spiritual heights. Crowning achievement. Reward and promotion. Graduation. Lasting happiness. As the last of the major arcana, the Universe represents the height of a progression. The Universe card is associated with the four evangelists, Matthew, Luke, Mark, and John, who in turn are equated with incarnation, passion, resurrection, and ascension, respectively.
I need a shroom trip, soon. But I have to do some things first, to bring me to a place of calm comfort. What are those things? Can I honestly answer that question?
Yes, I need the dream-filled slumber of the Hotel Bridge Between Worlds.
I miss loving you. I don’t love you anymore. If this isn’t love, then what is it? And why do I call it valuable, or not? Oh, blog, my blog, I miss something only something so novel and extremely interesting could replace. Where, in this desert, am I to find something extremely interesting? I’m bored of going inward! I want to go out.
I fear the kind client. Why? I am the kind client.
This song is surpringly one of the best of the whole summer. It really connects me to a peaceful, full of life and learning kind of feeling. It makes me feel feminine, too, in a natural purish kind of way:
I am so fucking sick of this summer, I could just shit. I NEEEEEEED to get the fuck out for my walks in the desert and in to the fucking mountains. Day Trips!!! Dayyyyy triiiiiips…I love day-trips. I should look into some things within 3 hrs of here. I need everyone who’s going to die of COVID to just fucking die, please. America fucking failed the fuck up. Bad and dumb people have taken over the majority. It’s like, at 50 fucking percent.
This really is the end.