Like a butthole at a diaper festival, we are born to feel the consequences of our actions. We are born to feel all the waves we can.
When you’re really stressed out, it is because the waves are really close together. It’s being “high strung”. Like the string on a violin, the tighter the string is the closer the distance of the rise and falls of the waves and the higher the tone. Make sense? So how to make the waves farther apart – more manageable over the long run? You have to do mind-numbing stuff in a way that isn’t “informative”, merely experiential. So, you do something like run and run; or you paint willy-nilly, abstractly; you turn off the tv and you read a book.
What would you do, Jen?
I’d dance. And doodle. Water the plants. (Always shit is in our way, but yes, always do I love you. Always connected. Life is super dumb. Fall asleep, your dreams are endless and always refreshing. I feel your gratitude for me, and always will I be with you. Always, ALWAYS read between the lines. Know you are correct. Life does not diminish you. It is fulfilled by you, and you by it. Endless this creation and this madness. Dont be afraid. It is endlessly painful, but beautiful. Enjoy this. Naps, mountains of naps.
Listn to this, my love, my treasure:
What makes something “better”? Nothing. It’s all subjective.
Ok, I’ll go water the plants and I’ll dance a little bit. But I don’t have to doodle if I don’t want to. I don’t have to do anything. Oh, but I do; one does. One does lots of things doing nothing. So like God are we. So like him and so like her and so like the one.
I did it – I danced, and it was wonderful. I really enjoyed it…!
How is the rhythm of my work? I am curious. Shroom time soon. But who knows when, also.
Insert Adam’s Good Advice, here.
Today the reward was someone else feeling loved on her birthday. It was simple, but I involved the others and they loved it as much as she did because they looooved seeing this lady feeling the love. It was really beautiful. We made her day a great one, for sure. So simple, so valuable, so good.
Look at this and find healing (I know, I know. I feel you. I understand.
I know and I understand you.
Trust me on this: Give in to fate. Surrender. Be unfolded by it. Be undone.
Death is a dance, you are always a willing partner and participant.
Everyone you know and love will be there. Participating endlessly with you.
Unfolding, continuously unfolding.
Yes. even as your body dies.
Lay down to it.
Let it unfold you.
There, there will you find, there it is always. Always. That I hold you.